Then I realised after receiving a sms that I had arranged to meet a couple of friends and a teacher, which I had forgotten because I lost track of the days while at the chalet.
Then in the evening was a dinner spent with friends talking about music, which ended on a slightly disturbing note upon a good friend's slightly negative reaction to my decision to teach.
Musing on the way home, on a crowded train, a thought suddenly dawned upon me - there were a lot of people in my life to please. Not that I have to put up a false front to please others. But more of keeping up with other people's pace, learning to accept differences, and learning to be sociable when it's just easier to retreat inwardly and keep to oneself. Maybe I'm too used to being alone and not having to contend with other people's presence. And when I'm thrust into the midst of society, I'm reminded that there are many, many people in my life.
1. The friends at the chalet.
2. The friends from uni. (not to mention the different factions of uni friends)
3. The music friends.
As I walked home, at a late hour at night, I added another group of people to please in my life.
4. My family.
On the weekend, there will yet be another group of people to please.
5. Church friends.
Next year when I start working, yet another group.
6. Colleagues and superiors.
Is it any wonder how exhausted people are? Simmel's optimistic view that only the city living individual experiences true freedom really seems applicable to me right now, typing in my own room, in a mercifully darkened house (because my parents are asleep).
Tomorrow, there's only one person to please. ^_______^
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